Change of Plans

So I don't think I ever clarified but I was doing a low carb high protein diet.  A couple of days ago I decided to change to weight watchers.  I need to be more realistic with myself.  I LOVE BREAD.  I can't do no/low carb.  If I want to lose weight I've gotta do it doing something I can do forever.  And I need a support group.  I am going to my first meeting tomorrow.  Very EXCITED/ embarrassed because this is the third time I've joined in Austin.  Both times I only lasted a few weeks and then quit because I wasn't doing it.  Not going to happen this time.  I am not letting myself quit.  So.  I'm happy and ready to start week one tomorrow! :) Probably going to weigh in at 200 tomorrow considering the fact that I had some valentines day candy and ate out a couple of times this weekend.  Not going to let it get me down though I'm ready to jump in this thing for...forever.  Went to a cycle class Thursday and kicked booty but need to kick it up to three times a week.  As always hanging in there :)

Feeling Much Better

Saturday, 200 pounds.

      Things have been pretty rough.  Feeling very deprived, very alone, and very impatient.  Today was much better though.  I think A huge load of homework that wasn't so stressful was actually good therapy for me.  Maybe I'm lacking a feeling of purpose.  Or it could be that I'm lacking my family and friendships that live a gazillion miles away from.  This semester has been different because I go to school 5 days a week instead of 2 and my classmates aren't talkative at all.  I really miss conversation.  My husband is literally the only person I talk to everyday unless I call friends or family from back home.  I hope things change because I don't like feeling so down all the time.  I'm thinking adding in some gym days could possibly help.  More exercise would give me more "endorphins" right? And an added Bonus would be that the pounds might fall off more quickly. 
       About to go eat dinner I'm hoping that my food taste good!  Turkey and green beans with a half cup of brown rice.  Yesterday was another bomb dinner.  I'm starting to think there is an issue with my taste buds for real!  Oh and the scale said 200 today.  I'm thinking I can hit the 180s next month with the added workouts.  I'm planning on researching ways to supercharge your weight loss.  I might give a few different things a try and see what happens.     

Feeling Like A Sloth

        Thursday, 201 pounds.  Working out has slowed a little these past two days but I am ready to kick it back into high gear.  I have plans this Saturday for Spin class!  I think I'm ready to roll for that.  I really do enjoy spin.  Its been so long since I've actually been in the gym though.  Over a month.  Walking with my husband outside has just been more appealing and good for our dog too.  I know I need to get in the habit of the walk being the "extra" workout.  Once I feel settled into school I will switch my routine up a bit and get in a few gym workouts every week. 
         I want to be done with the 200s this week.  I never thought I'd miss the 190s since I camped out there for so long..but these high waist mom jeans I've been forced to wear have me wishing I was at least in that bracket.  You cannot find Loose, or boot cut jeans these days without the waist reaching your boobs.  I am so sick of the skinny jean fad!  Fat people don't want to wear them and if they do they need to take a look in the mirror.  So yeah when I gained some weight and my shrinking bootcuts wouldn't fit I had to resort to buying a couple of "mom jeans".  Now that I've lost 11 pounds the crotch area is ridiculously baggy but I can't fit into my old jeans yet.  I really think they have a shrinking issue because it doesn't make any sense...maybe I just don't want to wear them as tight as i use to.  I looked like such a dork at school.  Speaking of school my phone decided to play a ballad for my English class today, I think it was Beethoven!  Apparently when you set your blackberry to silent it doesn't count for alarms.  I think my face turned as red as a monkeys butt.
       Okay so enough of my ramblings.  Food.  Today has been by far the best day of my eating just because I ate REAL food during the day.  I came home from school grilled a chicken breast and had an entire can of green beans (yeah i know fresh is better but I was all out).   I was so satisfied and didn't feel like I was being deprived of a potato or rice at all.  I think sticking to things I know I like is going to be the only way to do this.  No sense in forcing my self to swallow tofu like I did on Tuesday or learning to love fish If I just don't.  If I want to lose weight and be happy at the same time I think sticking to the things that I know work for me is going to be my best bet.  I can live off of Chicken, Turkey, and the occasional Beef along with an overload of veggies and be just fine.  As long as I'm losing I'm happy.  Is it too soon to hope I can see 189 next month? I guess I'll find out soon enough. 

its 3 AM

 So glad class isn't until 1 tomorrow...

       Can't sleep.  Mostly because I'm watching a recorded Oprah show and haven't gotten my butt in bed.
I broke out the Wii Fit a few hours ago and did my thirty minutes of stepping and a few sets of juggling (probably jiggling).  I love that juggling game so much fun.  Like I'd ever be able to do that in real life...not at the top of my list of to do things.  Hmm a little late for New Years Resolutions but maybe I should write a few. 

1. Finish things I start (including this Blog). 
2. Get to a healthy weight.
3. Learn how to play my Acoustic Guitar

Staying up late is not the greatest idea since I don't eat past 9pm.  Goodnight <3 :)

Never giving up...

         I should be studying right now but starting a blog sounds like more fun to me.  So my husband is napping on the couch and as soon as he wakes up I'm sure that we will be out the door for our nightly stroll with our black lab "Miley".  Why am I starting a Blog?  I need something, something to dedicate myself to.  I need accountability.  I so badly want to regain control over my eating and exercise habits.  I'm on the right track right now.  But the waiting for the weight to fall off is so hard.  I wish it could happen overnight but I obviously didn't put it on overnight.  Okay so here it is...today I am 5'4, 204 pounds two weeks ago I was 212 pounds so I am making some progress.  I feel like I can keep up the walking and drinking just water but the fact that food is losing its flavor to me sucks.  I don't know what the deal is but I'm not enjoying anything.  Even things I would normally enjoy if I weren't dieting.  I hope this issue solves itself and my taste buds come back to life.  I want a cherry coke so bad right now but going to take another sip of my water.  Guess this is what thin taste like, yay.